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Name: Serena
Birthday: 6/27/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Metallica~Pink Floyd~(All the GREAT BANDS)~playin my guitar~ Skating~ Chillin with the homies
Expertise: Wouldnt you like to know.....lol
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Member Since:
1/26/2005
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| WHAT TO BELIEVE
Nobody's perfect and no matter who you are we all tell lies. The thing that sucks the most is when your friends lie streight to your face (or at least you thought they were your friend). After so many lies you just stop believing every thing that comes out of their mouth. I actually find it quite humorous cause I know when these people are lieing to me, and they acctually think I believe them, and its funny cause truth is I can see streight through there bull shit. Ever notice how when you or some one else confronts them about it they get mad?! Then start talking shit on you. Logically speaking they're just proving you right by becoming so self defensive so quickly, and trying to change the subject by making you look like the bad guy. They do this because they are insecure about them selves and mentally it makes them feel beter about who they are when they start to talk crap on someone ele. How do I know this? I do it all the time! (at least I dont lie about it). As far as becomming so self defensive so quickly, I guess that they think covering up a lie with another lie will make it better, but really Im just laughin harder!
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| I feel so lost right now, I have 1000 different thoughts and emotions going through my head right now and I have no idea on how to deal with them. I notice that I'm not the same person that used to be. I lack self confidence, and faith in everything I once believed in. I used to love the way I looked, but every time I look in a mirror I'm disgusted by what I see. I used to be fun to be around, people used to call me just for a good joke, I notice that people would rather watch paint dry then to be around me. I don't know what happened, ever since school started in august things just haven't been the same. I would give anything to be that person again. . . I don't know what to do . . . | | |
| I don't know if it will ever go away, I don't know much about these situations, all I know is that I hate feeling the way it makes me feel. I had another one of those dreams again last night that he was back, that mom let him back into our home to hurt and manipulate our family again. I hate being alive and knowing that he got away with what he did to me. That disgusting sick bastard needs to burn in hell, and it disturbes me to know that he's not there yet. I hate having nightmares about it, its like I'm reliving the whole incident all over again, then I wake up and realize it was just a dream. I sit up in my bed and cry while my mind is full of all these thoughts and feelings. Mostly hate, not only towards him, but her,my own mother who just expected me to pretend like it never happened after I told her. Then I start to think of what life would be like now if I had never called the authorities. . . He's gone now and that's all I care about, but he's fighting for visitation rights for my sister, she's only going on 5. I doubt she remembers him, as much as I try Ill never forget. I hate it, I just want these feelings to go away! I want to go to bed with out worrying about him being in my sleep, no more do I want to wake up crying and have feelings that I cant explain... Some day he will pay for what he did, to me and my family... He will pay! | | |
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